Being a World Class Number 1

The last two days at时老师, Jason Shi’s seminar was really great. I realise that 时老师 is actually… A FISH!!! Haha…. I was observing him the first day, and realise that he almost never breathes! He speaks really fast, and the breaths he take in between are so short, it’s less than a second. Wow!!! This is the first time I hear a person, especially a speaker, to speak so fast and breathe so shortly for a seminar. Imagine you have to rattle off like a machine gun for 3 hours, with less than a second of breath to catch, and speak so eloquently with so much details and information in every word spoken, and with every 5 minutes tell a joke that makes everyone laughs, and finish his teaching agenda exactly at the timing he assigned before hand! Wow! You have to be a computer to be so accurate, not to mention his understanding of us, WBG, his technical knowledge and his general knowledge. It’s like he knows EVERYTHING! Wow… That’s professionalism for you. To be able to become a world class speaker like him, yet still put in all sincerity and hard work while working continuously is really not an easy task. Maybe if I were him, with my world class branding, and hefty price to even engage me, I don’t think I’d put that much effort in teaching. I’d probably be enjoying myself most of the time. So that’s the difference of a successful person and me. I’m really still not to his level yet, and no where near. Blahx.

If possible, you really should find a chance to attend one of his seminars. It won’t be cheap, but he is very very capable with creating a system and structure for a company, and a very captivating speaker. I believe with his help, WBG will be able to soar to greater heights. ^_^ I believe he also do coaching for companies other than network marketing companies. So if you are an enterprise owner, you might want to engage his help. From what I heard of, he is completely packed for this year, so you may have to wait another year. If you’re just a normal person, you can try finding out more about his seminars and hear his CDs. If I have more information, I’d post it in my blog too. I’m really awed by him! Oh... And he writes books too!

Share a joke he said in class. This will determine your age:
爸爸今天去药房买伟哥(Viagra), 可是今天没货了要明天才有. 猜一个台湾艺人.

If you can’t guess the answer, YOU ARE OLD!!! Haha…
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阮經天!

Haha.. Did you guess it right? I’m the first two to guess it amongst 200 people. So I am officially YOUNG! Muahahahaha….

Reviewing myself

Really got a lot of information and insights from 时老师. Was thinking during the seminar whether I should go full time into WBG or not. And thinking, whether I should start going full force with my business, be it full time or part time. In the past, it is easy to decide to go full force and go all the way. But now, it’s really not easy. Maybe after 3 years, I’m really tired. Even though I was a good emcee on stage, I’ve almost lost my voice so I’m not even confident of that now. Even though I could dance well as an Assistant Coach, I’m not sure if I can do anymore of that now. I don’t know why, since the first POV, my body hasn’t been working well. Can’t really take late nights nor anyhow eat, nor hard work…can’t even take talking much. Bah. Really feel very tempted by时老师 to work hard for my own future. But now, I’m just over stretched. I am so tired. Perhaps it’s just my PMS, but most of the time I just feel like crying, even while attending 时老师’s seminar. Really feel that I need to get away from everything for some time, be it to USA or somewhere else, or I might just break down. There’re so many things to do, so many challenges to face. Sometimes I just feel like dropping dead, or accidentally get knocked down by a car or something (which nearly happened for a few times. Choy choy choy!).

But, I shouldn’t be like this. A successful person shouldn’t have too many emotions, in fact, not supposed to have. I never quarrel with people in the past other than my own family, and even so I would forgive and forget very easily. But now it seems harder and harder for me. I keep having quarrels with people and finding it more and more difficult to forgive. It’s probably really my problem. A person wouldn’t keep having quarrels with people, unless there’s a problem with that person right? I just feel angry so easily now. Sigh. And unappreciated and unrespected and…. Bah.

But I really want a better future. I want a future without being financially tied down. I want a future where my family can live happily. So this is the pathway I’m going whether or not it’s tiring. Probably I just need some rest and a place to vent my frustrations, which is not here coz it’s public. Ok. I vented quite a bit already. I need a valley to shout!

Whatever anything is, I need a break from everything and everyone. Unless you’re here to be nice, whoever you are, please don’t come near me for the time being. But of course, I will 公私分明, so don’t worry.

Moody

I seem to be in a bad mood today. I remember waking up feeling good, but later on during the day, I suddenly feel overwhelmed by everything that needs to be done. Maybe I’m scared that I couldn’t finish my things bah. Sigh. Sudden urge for freedom is filling me. I did the 3 cards. Haha… And got a shock.



Again, I got Death Temptation for my Problem Card. I must be too worn out by everything. Bah. But some times really think, die already no need to care for so many things. It’s not a good thought, so please don’t follow.

Second card – The Way Through, I got Trust. Which means I’ve got to start trusting in positive things, instead of negative things. And I’ve got to start trusting people. I really have some problems with that, so I tend to want to do everything by myself, which in the end wears me out. My argument for it? I’m a perfectionist. If I want something done, I want it to be perfect. If I can’t make it perfect, I’ll be so upset with myself before even doing it. And this ends up in being either depressed, or overly worn out, like now. Grrrr….

Third Card – The Gift. Hahaha.. This is the card I’m shocked with. Can you guess what it represents? The card is Sexuality. It’s quite difficult to explain it, so I’ll just show the explanation from 3 Cards here.

Sexuality
from the Gift Suit
Key concept: A new level of vitality, naturalness, love, communication and connection Sexuality as a Gift card is about an expression of love and communication. It means a whole new emphasis of connection with your partner. If it is about yourself, it speaks of a new level of acceptance and admittance of your sexual energy. This will give you a new expression in sexuality and naturally add to your vitality, attractiveness and flow. It will bring a natural charisma and connection between you and your partner, or between you and those around you. True joining in sex creates healing and love.

Using the card: Receiving the Sexuality card suggests a new level of sexuality, innocence, expression, naturalness and connection in sex – to yourself and to others. Not only does it mean that this could be your lucky night, but also that your enjoyment of life is certainly on the increase. This card is both sweet and sassy. It doesn’t necessarily mean sex, but it does mean a new richness and naturalness for yourself in life generally and in joining with your partner. If you don’t have a partner at present, this card means you will have a level of openness toward a new one. If there is a major block in your life and the Sexuality card is the response to it, then the block represents a form of control and your fear of your sexuality. Owning your sexuality as a natural gift increases your confidence, play and irresistability. This card, joined with integrity, brings a strong leadership element into your life, and into the lives of those around you.

Understand? Because I don’t have a partner now, my level of openness towards a new one increases. Which is a good thing. Right? ^_^

So, I have to TRUST!




Which is what I’ll do.

I trust and sincerely believe that our Iris And Health event for this Saturday will turn out great, with great responses and great sales!

We’ve even invited Speaker cum Senior Iris Analyst Grace to be our Speaker of the day. Grace works in the pharmaceutical industry so I’m sure she’s the right person for our seminar. *TRUST* Haha…

Today I closed a business deal of $6000+ sales for a friend. Though I don’t earn anything for it, coz it’s not my deal, but I feel great. This is my first time sharing business with a professional of age 30+. He’s an engineer, and is nearly 10 years older than me. But I closed the deal!!! Haha.. this is something I couldn’t have done before. Imagine sharing a business idea with a man much older than you, who has much more experience than you. Difficult right? Imagine the man buying the idea, and is willing to fork out $6000+ to engage in the business together, and use $160 per month for maintaining his health (when before that he is not concerned about that). Ha… Can you do it? And the funny thing is, I seem to take it for granted that the deal is to be closed. I think I’m weird.

Magdalene came over to ask me after the deal, “How did you do it?”

Then I said, “Just like that lor. Actually it’s the same as any business deals.”

Haha.. And she’s amazed. So is Cheewai (the friend whom I closed the deal for), and some of the people who saw us close the deal.

Actually, it’s really easy coz the business idea is good, and the deal is good, and the promos are good. I only sat there and shared what I know, and answered what he wanted to know. It’s like an algorithm machine. You key in the question and press enter. And it replies. Then when you feel that you’ve gotten what you want, you just click Accept Idea. Easy as ABC right? Only thing is that in business there has to be transaction. For people who’re working and has the financial capabilities, it is easy for them. It’s only for people like me who don’t have the financial capabilities that we have to keep thinking whether to buy into something or not. That’s why the Rich gets Richer, and the Poor gets Poorer. Sometimes all we have to do is RISK. And luckily I took it 3 years ago when I was 20 years old, though I really went through a lot in this risk taken. But of course, adequate risk is enough, not overly risky. I’m an evader.


This Year Is OUR YEAR! I believe in this. *TRUST*


Anyway, I think I speak more knowledgeably than I blog. Haha.. My blog seems to be filled with random rattlings most of the time. But, who cares? =P

Tmr I’m going to an incredible networking seminar by Jason Shih, a master networker and network speaker. Don’t know what to expect. But I’m sure it’s something good. I’ll rest early to prepare for tmr bah.

~Home Sweet Home~

I’m finally home! After 2 days of consecutive fyp-ing, I’m finally back at my comfortable room, lying on my comfortable bed. I never knew my bed can feel this good… And my television is right in front of me, showing the variety show 蓋酷の兵团.

Complete Blissfulness.

I’m gonna sleep earlier tonight. Tmr I’ll be going to SMU for project meeting with my team mate for FYP. Have been spending so much time on it. Hope I can finish it soon.

Hui Juan is so extremely nice. She was an A student for Java, so I asked her for help for my java. And she agreed amidst her very busy schedule. Thanks babe~~ Love ya~~ Tmr I’ll be meeting her to consult her about it. I think I’ve met my new angel!!

I wanna learn how to dance and learn my jap. Think I’ve forgotten most of my jap. Gimme a temp job that I can earn loadsa money in 2 months! I’m ok with frontline jobs, emcee jobs or even write reports… In fact, I think my report writing skills are quite good. Just no OT, coz I won't have the time. Gotta earn some money after I’m done with my FYP to finance myself so that I can take up some classes.

Tired Tired. Been laughing so much today. Haha.. Don’t know why, being with KL always makes me break into hysterical laughter. Annie says that KL is my Truman Show. Haha… Every single action he does makes me laugh so much that my stomach hurts. But to clarify, I laugh at almost anything lehz…. KL just happens to entertain me more coz he can’t focus on his studying. Haha.. But it was fun studying with him and Annie, even though he just banned me from studying with him. Blahx.

Anyway, we've recovered from our quarrel from the last time. Hehe... He brought breakfast over!!! Other than my ex-bf (can't remember if he brought before or not) and my family, no one has ever bought breakfast to my place in the morn. So touched... I shall hereby name KL as the first guy who brought breakfast to my home in the morning, so we shall call him Sir KL. Muahahaha.. Really going cranky.

Ok. I’m gonna sleep. I made 3 posts today!!!! ^_^

5 Crashes in a row!!!

Argh!!! My laptop keeps crashing!! Though it's very pretty, with dual processor and easy to use, I can’t stand it when it starts crashing. Once it crashes, it won’t work even if you press ctrl alt dlt. Think there’s something wrong with the hardware. When I first got it a month ago, it keeps hanging, then starts crashing once a day or many hours a time. But today, it crashed like a few hours after I start using, and henceforth, every 10-20 minutes once! It’s driving me mad.

It’s so pretty.. but…

Sigh. Gotta take it to the repairs right after I’m done with my Final Year project this week.

Going Mad from studying/doing project

Annie and I are studying at woodlands library now. We must be going mad from the mugging.
Annie’s been laughing to herself while studying and listening to Mr Brown's show at the same time. Hahaha… I wanted to post a picture of her laughing to herself, but she don’t allow. Invasion of privacy right? Yes. Understood. Haha…

And here I am, happily taking pictures of my laptop coz it crashed so many times, and posting it on my blog. I’m going crazy too. Haha..

We are the Self Entertainment Queens!

Ok. A list of things to complete before library closes at 9pm.

1) Complete FYP html pages with pseudocodes (Almost done)
2) Put nice index page for Iridology website

Tonight I’ve gotta plan out the cashflow competition for next week.

加油! 加油! 加油!!!

I'm BACK!!!

This is gonna be a very long post. Be prepared to read what you’ve missed out for the last few(many) days.

Studying after exams with exam freaks

These few days I’ve been spending most of my time either in school or woodlands library. Been rushing my final year project and settling things for the holistic fair and upcoming seminars that there wasn’t time to even write much for my blog. I’ve so many things to write, but no time to write.

Just to explain my previous entry, actually I’m ok larz… Think I’ve been seeing too many iris pictures and writing too many reports that the negative energy came to me. Iris pictures give out a lot of negative energy, especially those of people with poor health. So don’t worry, I’m doing great. ^_^

Actually been laughing so much the last few days while studying together with KL and Annie, and also yesterday at KL and Cyn’s place. Was supposed to be doing calling for the seminars to people from the holistic fair, but I end up doing my final year project, and later on watching the last episode of 白色巨塔. Wei Jie was the man. Haha.. he ended up doing most of the callings. But KL and Cyn say they’ll call the rest today. Muahaha.. I really don’t feel like looking at those names and things anymore. Been seeing so much of them while doing the report and editing the compilation of the list that I don’t want to see it anymore, at least for the time being.

Some pictures of us studying

(Picture of KL)

I took a picture, but I was typing this while sitting next to him in the library. He say

Why you put my picture? Invade into my privacy lei!

Bah… So never put. Haha.. Maybe annie might put it in her blog.

(Picture of Annie)

Annie studying hard. (Asked to be taken down after this is posted. Muahahaha...)

Me busy typing away for my project. (Act of revenge by KL)
At least the picture look nice enough.

I went to Annie’s place to stayover after the meeting at KL and Cyn’s place. Coz… woodlands is really a journey from my home in sengkang. Don’t wanna waste my bus fare coz coming back to woodlands library the next day anyway.

Annie’s place was really interesting. She has a very hip mum who wears very classy and in style clothes. Wow.. spent at least half an hour in her room while she showed me all her nice clothes and accessories and shoes that goes with it. Next time when I go out for dinner I know who to look for. Hehe..

Annie must be real bored coz I slept early last night. Was so very tired…. I slept around 1am. So she went off with some self entertainment.

This picture looks nice!!! So artistic. Reminds me of my art project on photography. Look at the lighting. Cool rite?

Ahem… Why you take sneak pictures of me sleeping??? Haha..

And she seems to be enjoying herself so much. I feel like an animal in the zoo. Haha…

Only realize those sneak pictures while retrieving pictures from my camera today. Annie really does self entertainment well too. I realize that there’re many people around me who loves doing that. My brother, myself, my dad, my mum, ok my family, annie, weijie. Muahaha… There must be an even longer list of people who does that. These people are only the people I’ve observed these last two days.

Self Entertainment

Was sitting in the living room watching soccer (don’t ask me why. I don’t know myself. By the time I realize I was watching with them, half hour already passed) with my brother and dad yesterday. Suddenly I started singing and dancing with my hands. Ahem. Then my brother say,

What are you trying to do?

Then I suddenly realize I was self entertaining. Hahahaha… don’t know if you tried this before? While at home, you suddenly did things you don’t know you’re doing. Like talking to yourself or singing or anything. Maybe even dancing about. After my brother said that, then I realize, he was also self entertaining. My dad fell asleep and I went off to do my things (when I realize I was watching soccer all those while), my brother was still talking away. Hahahaha… he was like the commentator. Talking to himself while watching soccer. So funny. And he asked me what I was doing. He should know I was self entertaining.

B Team gathering

Last Friday I went to my B(est) Team gathering. In case you don’t know what B team is, it’s actually my assistant coach team. In WBG, we have a group of assistant coaches specially selected and groomed for our trainings for entrepreneurship. Assistant coaches are split into 3 teams, A(rete) team, B(est) team and C(onqueror) team. I am one of the few selected to be an assistant coach(AC) and in B team.

Our dinner was held in Annaklakshmi. A really great vegetarian indian charity restaurant. It’s a eat as much as you like, pay as much as you like restaurant. I was late, so by the time I reached most of the ACs already finished their dinner. I was told that the television crew for a European food channel had came to interview and interviewed some of them. So cool!!! Too bad I was late so I didn’t see any of that. Anyway, the food there is great! If you’re into vegetarian indian food, do try it out at that place. It’s at Chinatown Point Basement 1.

After that, Nick brought me to an interesting massage place. Nono.. It’s not sleazy. It’s a very nice, cozy place, and at the same time filled with prestigiousness.

足浴阁 Bath Culture Foot Therapy
59 Temple Street S(0588604)

Picture taken by their daughter while I hold on to the camera

Doesn’t it seem a nice place? And it’s in Chinatown, just next to the Chinatown MRT. When you walk into the place, it’s like going into a different dimension.

They’ve been on many magazines, and their charges are really cheap too. For introductory prices, their foot bath is at $10, and their massage is at $10 per ten minutes. After a 20 minutes massage, my shoulder ache practically disappeared. Until now, I only feel a slight ache after spending hours at my laptop.

The bosses of the place are really nice people too. One of the lady boss is called Doreen. And she’s on great terms with Nick. So after our massage we had a long chat with them. Their business is so good that they open till 11plus or midnight. They also serve great tea. I was so impressed with their tea that I ate up the tea leaves, not knowing that they’re not supposed to be eaten. Opps. Haha.. Doreen was so shocked when she see the tea leaves gone.

Her husband was the one who concocted the tea. He had great interest in concocting tea and making desserts. He concocted a new dessert and let us try too. It was really… NICE!!!!!! He says that he’ll be making the desert next time every Friday, Saturday and Sunday, and serve them as a reward to the regulars. Really hope I can be like them in the future. Doing something I love with my loved ones and earning loads of money at the same time.

Here’s a picture of their daughter.

She’s a little shy so she didn’t smile for the camera. We were there till 11+ at night, and she was still there waiting for her parents to get off work. The place is like her playground. Haha.. how nice?

Can’t really remember the names for the tea and the dessert that we eat. Next time when I go over again I’ll take pictures of them and the menu. ^_^

If you’re interested in having a good body and/or foot massage and relieve your stress, this is a great place to go to with very reasonable rates and great services.

ABN Amro card holders have privileges at that place too. ^_^

Scared

The time is 3.03am. I don’t know why, I feel so scared all of a sudden. As I lay in my bed, filled with trepidation nearing tears, I heard the door opening. My brother’s coming home. I felt a relief and rush to open the door. But things fell and blocked the pathway of my room’s door. I felt really scared. Scared that I’ll be stuck there forever and no one will be bothered with me. I don’t know why I just feel so scared, so scared that I want to cry. I’m so scared I just feel like shouting out loud for someone to open the door for me. I’m scared everyone will leave me, no one will want me. I’m scared I’m not good enough. Just when I’m feeling scared, my handphone rings. Haha… Annie sent me a msg asking about the iris reports from the holistic fair. I felt much better. Like there are still people around and I’m not alone. Seeing my brother in the living room, with my dog prancing around, I felt much better. I’m not alone.

But alone in the room, I still feel so scared. Lately, I just want to do things my way. I don’t care about everything nor what people think. I just want to do it my way. Maybe I’m just afraid to sink back into depression. I’m scared of the feeling of being scared, and feeling rejected, feeling discarded. I’m scared… I’m really scared… I’m so scared of the night, being alone in my room…

Maybe after posting this I’ll calm down. ^_^

I'm a genius!

Muahahaha.. I think I’m a genius!!! I wrote a community service report for a community service project I did 3 years ago! And I wrote 3 pages long for that. Guess what community service I did? You’d never guess it. I was a dancer for the National Day Parade. And with that experience from 3 years ago, I can write a 3 pages report of the experience I had, things I learnt, and how it’d help me.

Here’s a paragraph:

I had doubted the significance of the contribution I made whilst performing a dance for the whole Singapore. But I slowly realize that the things we do, however small, actually contribute to the well-being of others and to ourselves. With just a performance by us, giving in just a small effort, we show the lively side of Singapore, giving an identity to Singapore and even attracting tourists. In life, we often don’t feel the importance of the things we do, hence we may feel not motivated to perform our best. In actual fact, even if what we do isn’t shown to the masses, whatever we do does make an impact to our surroundings. I learnt that if we do our best, people will feel it and our surroundings will improve for the better. Also, through this event, I learnt more about myself and how to persevere if I were to meet challenges in life.

Muahahaha… I’m a genius. Ok. But I really do mean it. As I was writing the report, I was half thinking, how can a dancer for NDP be contributing towards the society? And, how is it possible to be significant enough that I can even write a report on it? Yet, without thinking much, I can write 3 pages within half an hour. I think I’ve really grown since 3 years ago.

Ok. Back to work! Still got a list of things to complete.

To do list:
1) Confirm number of IAs for meeting on fri with June
2) Finish pseudocodes for HTML for FYP
3) Review for holistic fair (At 9pm)
4) Get iridology website done (quick!!!)
5) Complete the 30 forms for IA (less than half more to go)
6) Submit indemnity form for intern and I grade form (tmr)

Time is running!! Woodlands Library is closing in… less than 10 min!

Jerry’s Free Cone Day!!!!

I know I’m supposed to write on my adventures with MJ and the holistic fair, but I’m so excited over today’s free cone day that my hands won’t stop typing! If you’re not there for the ice cream today, you are not a Singaporean! How can you miss out on such a great freebie???

Look at the queue!

The queue was really long, but we took less than half an hour to get the ice creams. And while queueing, we just snap away…

And away…

And away…

All in the name of blogging! Haha.. no. It’s actually so as to make James regret for not joining us today. =Pp

Jerry’s Free cone day also conducts charity for brain – injured children. We got our ice cream and donated money too. Too bad most people just went for the ice-cream but didn’t donate.

And they have so many flavours!! Normally freebies are not supposed to be this good with varieties for you to choose.

Guess what flavour I took?

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I got the famous...

Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough!

And it’s really nice!!! Oishii!!! The chunky bits taste so great when you bite it. The chocolaty taste and the fragrance of the chocolate just ooze into your mouth. When you take the first bite, you just want to take the second. And by the time you realize, the ice cream is gone.

MJ couldn’t stop eating his strawberry cheesecake ice cream, and so…

BACK TO THE QUEUE!

Haha.. Aren’t we just loyal citizens of Singapore????

Even Ben & Jerry’s can’t take Singaporeans like us. If this happen everyday, I think they’d close down permanently.

I feel guilty of not letting Jiayao join us today. Hope he gets his ice cream. We really were intending of having girls' day out. Oh.. And do you know MJ's a gal too? (agreed upon by June)

Check out Annie’s blog for more details and pictures from our Free Cone day trip.

Friends

On Friday I’d a quarrel with KL that led to non-stop quarrels for a day. We’ve always had our differences, but never had we had serious quarreling in front of people. Because of some misunderstandings on Friday night, we kept quarreling yesterday. It was a silly misunderstanding. I was angry with myself, I don’t know what he was thinking, and we both just started being angry with each other. I really don’t know why we started being so critical with each other until now. Anyway, we quarreled so badly that we never once had a real exchange of words, other than snide remarks, even though we’re working so hard for the holistic fair. The holistic fair was a great success, but I felt really sad because of our quarrels. Only then, did I realize the importance of KL and also how important my friends are.

I don’t like quarreling with friends, and very rarely quarrel with friends. But I was just so angry and upset. After quarreling with KL on Friday night, I was so upset that I called James (whom I shall now call Mr 911), and cried to him for half an hour, but ended up laughing the remaining half hour. James is a really very nice and capable guy (hehe.. you owe me a meal for advertising that in the blog).

Though I still had quarrels with KL on Saturday, we made things up at night. And things went better between us today. After our holistic fair, KL asked MJ to come over for our celebration dinner, all the way from Hougang to Bras Basah Road, saying that we have a lot of things to carry. Maybe he wanted to make me happy by asking MJ along? I don’t know. But I was really happy to see MJ. MJ is going to HK soon. Only after seeing MJ that I know I really missed him, even though I just saw him last week. In the past, I saw him almost everyday. I think before seeing MJ today, I almost forgot about MJ because of my quarrels with KL.

I’m kinda in this Independent Zone and defense mode lately.

I just want to do what I want to, don’t bother me. Why should I do what you want me to? I’m already a grown up. Stop thinking that you need to help me plan everything, and stop thinking that I’m useless at everything. Trust me!

I guess that’s what led to the quarrels with KL. But after meeting MJ, my wall just broke apart. I don’t think he realized, but I was all gung-ho, leave me alone, I can do everything by myself. Even after we bade farewell to everyone after our dinner, and headed off to find our friend Maiko, I still had that wall. But right after, we crossed the roads to go off to the office, my wall just broke apart and I thought I can relax now. I’ve been so tensed up lately, with daily nightmares and a bad temper. Try reading my previous blog entries and you'll see the gung-ho me. I don’t know what he did. Maybe it was the care I felt when we crossed the roads, or the way he looks at me as if I am important, and his nervousness over me while I cross the roads. I suddenly feel that I can be myself, and don’t have to act as if I don’t need anyone. I really need to cling on to someone and I was so glad MJ was around. MJ is really important. I’ll miss him so very much when he goes to Hong Kong.

I really wonder why I always felt so alone when I have so many great friends around. Friends who love me regardless of what I do or the tantrums I throw or even if I thought they don’t care. Even though I quarreled with KL the last few days, I still need to switch on the light decoration he gave me during Christmas last year, and look at it for a while before turning off and falling asleep. Actually I have to look at it every night before going to bed. And even though we quarreled so badly the last few days, he was so nice to me today. Guys are supposed to have ego issues, but KL just treated me so understandingly nice even for my bad attitude. How can I not love him? How can I even be angry at him in the first place?

I also have very good female friends like Wanlin, Pan and Annie. The time when I felt so alone, Wanlin suddenly appeared and came to my home to ask for my advice. I felt really happy and relieved, as if I’m alive again. She didn’t know she was doing me a favour instead. But I don’t really quarrel with my gal friends. Maybe James is right. Friends whom you quarrel with and made things up, you’d become better friends with them. Perhaps that’s why MJ and KL are so dear to me. We really went through ups and downs, quarrels and nice times. I really don’t want MJ to go HongKong. If I can’t make that wish, then I wish that time will pass quickly when MJ goes to HongKong. But.. that’s not a good wish.

I wish that another person will come into my life as the form of MJ

It’s always what happens. Like… last time my Mr 911 was Richard, and now James appeared. And when I went to POV without KL, feeling so frightened, KL came in the form of Max. And Max is really so wonderful… I don’t mean people are replacements, but God do send angels to you in the form of different people. KL and MJ are my angels now, and they’ll always be...

I'm so tired I'm gonna conk out.

Next entry will be on the Holistic Fair and Night out with MJ searching for Private Maiko. Stay tuned for great happenings and interesting experiences!

Messy Messy

The following scene is Restricted Adults. Be prepared to see a side of me you’ve never seen before from this posting. Those below 18 are not allowed. Hope you’ve taken your meal hours before.

I’ve been like so misplaced these few days that even my room is so messy.

Who says women can’t be messy?

But within an hour, PRESTO!

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Isn’t it better?

Just ignore the paper bags at the bottom of the table. There’s really no place to put everything in the room. I’ve swept the room, changed all my bedsheets and cleared up my mess. But still gotta go to salvation army and recycling place to give away my things. I’ve so much things in my room that there’s no where I can keep them.

How neat a person’s room is will actually dictate their mood. It’s really difficult to stay happy living in a messy room. So no matter how tight your schedule is, always remember to pack the room. ^_^

Do I really want to tie myself into a relationship?

I was wondering that lately I’ve spent too much time thinking about men. Becoming too 花痴, really should put more effort into my business, if not my mum will start complaining that I’m not earning money very soon. Ok. That was an excuse. I really should put more effort into the WBG business now since I don’t have to go school, but just need to do webpage coding for FYP and internship. I’ve been so used to not doing business that I just forgot to do business. From today, I’m officially starting up my business! I really love doing WBG business anyway.

This weekend a few of our team in GSS are going to the holistic fair to set up an iris analyst booth. We really put quite a lot of finances and effort into this event, coming up with our pamphlets and namecards etc.

We’ll be giving consultations of iris analysis and selling Fibre Plus.

Fees (per consultation) are as follows:
10 minutes - $13 (normally at least $80 in the market)
20 minutes - $18

Fibre Plus will be sold at $48 each and $90 for 2.

The Fibre Plus is slightly more expensive than normal WBG rates because the rental fees at the holistic fair are very expensive so we’d have to scale it higher. If you’re interested in finding out about your health through your iris, you can pop by to the holistic fair and come for a consultation. There’ll also be a health seminar on Iris and Health worth $5 each for people who bought 2 fibre plus (date to be advised).

The Incredible Slimming Sweets

Last saturday, I had a tremendous discovery when I went for A/Prof Haresh's Metabolic Syndrome seminar. A/Prof Haresh was great at delivering the health message on Metabolic Syndrome. After that, there was actually a launch on a new product! Ok.. Not really a launch. WBG had brought in from Korea 200 boxes of Hunza Life Slim Diet Fiber (for fun I heard). It’s one of the most interesting sweets I ever saw, and definitely one of the most expensive.

A box of this costs S$200!!

Take a look at the inside

Each bottle costs $100!

90 sweets in each! Look how big each sweet is.

And I don’t even understand the ingredients in them.

While trying out a sweet each, Eepin and Cynthia was saying “I still can’t believe sweets can make a person slim down.”

But guess what?

I bought it!!! Hahaha.. I can’t resist the temptation. Have you ever seen sweets which will make a person slim? But of course, it’s not from my own pocket. My mum paid for it. There was a special offer on that day because of A/Prof Haresh’s seminar. With 2 VPs bought, or 1 family VP bought, we can get a box of (prepare for the long name) Life Slim Diet Fibre for just $30!!!! How cheap is that? And it’s limited stock of 200 packets. Each person can only buy 2 at most. And the best thing is, eating sweets while maintaining your shape!

When I brought it back to my mum, she said “You sure these will help a person slim down”, while happily eating one of it. You should have seen her face. Hehe.. She was so happy. My mum has been trying ways to slim down, but she don’t like to take VP and FP everyday, so this sweet is like a saviour. For one, it is very convenient, you just pop it into your mouth, for seconds, it is nice! The sweet tastes like honey dew, and when you chew it, it’s like those kinda powdery sweets. Sweet and nice. And trust me, the sweets definitely works.

The functions is as follows:
1) Blocks off fats
2) A sense of fullness so you won’t feel like eating too much

Ain’t that cool? There’re other functions, but I only know of these two from the customer service. And anyway, products from WBG are normally very effective. I haven’t tried one product which is not effective yet as of now. Think if I found one like that, I can sell it for an even expensive price. Haha..

If you want to buy a box of it to slim or for keepsake, I’m not sure if you can get it coz it’s out of stock now. But do let me know, and I can try asking if we can get from WBG Korea. I heard that if there’s a demand for it, it might be possible that WBG Singapore will get it into Singapore.

Personality Test

Wow! Just did a personality test online, recommended by Wanlin. It's really quite accurate.
Take a look:

Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them. (True to an extent)

The type of boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. (True)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (True to an extent bah..)

The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (True)

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (True)

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. (True)

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. (True)

What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. (True to an extent)

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Do try it out @ http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Freaked out!

Ah!!! I jus realize... there're so many people reading my blog... I'm feeling a bit chickened out! *shivers* Ok. I asked people to check out my blog putting it under my msn message. But still, I'm so not used to exposing myself.

*Shakes my head*

But... I'll get used to it I guess. And it's better for people to really understand and know me, then they thought they know me. I started updating this blog, and really made it into a blog because of the 3 card I've gotten some time ago.

I was having a difficult time coping after going through POV a month after. I was having nightmares every night since my first POV, and it was getting on my nerves and sinking me into depression again. I was really afraid then, to even step out of home, and don't dare to go to school. I feel really scared, just stepping out of home, and when people look at me or talk to me. I know it sounds really weird, but that was how I felt. I felt so insufficient. So, I took a chance at 3 cards.

"Will my problems be solved by just doing what I need to?"




Looking at the way through my problems, I thought the best way to communicate is through writing a blog. I always had a problem with expressing myself when talking to people. It's really hard for me to express myself truthfully however much I want. Using a blog, I'll just blabber unknowingly, and from there find my true self. I always find myself in my writings. So... here I am, blabbering away to someone like you, whom maybe I don't even know. And it really feels good to be able to write truthfully of my own feelings. I'm starting to be able to face people truthfully now too.

*shakes my head*

Ok! enough of these talks. Anyway, I'm really so glad that many people do read my blog and are concerned about me. I only found out that Jet reads my blog through Annie yesterday. I was so shocked! Haha.. but no offense. Really glad that I've an audience, especially when it's Jet. But.. eh.. I'm really working on the internship! *pretends to busily typing away* hee...

Just to checklist the things I've did today and yesterday.


1) Plan out timeline for internship and start on webpage -- half way thru

2) FYP - Webpage coding -- Started but Stuck!

3) Get tuition assignments -- Pending

4) Book facial appointments for aunt -- Fully booked! No more spaces! (*grr)

5) Call Mr Zhou to borrow banner for holistic fair event (Done!)

6) Find that AJAX book I've borrowed for a long long time (Done!)

7) Ask Wilson about the freelance coaching of Microsoft programs (Done!)



Chiang Chiang Chiang Chiang~~~ Incredible! I really did things!



ok. I'm tired. Tmr, there'll be a very interesting posting on the incredible slimming sweets! Stay tuned!

Random babblings

I've written a letter, and it's been 2 years already. Why is it that it's not completely gone yet? Grrr... It's ok. Things will be alright after more time. Seems like it's going to rain soon, I'll just go and hang my clothes and be back at night for more updates. There's a list of things I've to accomplish today:

1) Plan out timeline for internship and start on webpage
2) FYP - Webpage coding (*yucks*)
3) Get tuition assignments
4) Book facial appointments for aunt
5) Call Mr Zhou to borrow banner for holistic fair event
6) Find that AJAX book I've borrowed for a long long time
7) Ask Wilson about the freelance coaching of Microsoft programs

Seems like such a long list... Sigh. I'll update once I've gotten everything done. Ok! Time for a bath and get things started! 加油!

Going Jittery

I'm all jittery!!! Should I post all these online? Never mind. Ha.. I'll just disclose the boring stuff. Today was actually a day of pure decadence. I've done nothing much but rested. Really can't do anything. Internet was down, and I'm feeling all jittery since the morning. Guess I'm a bit stressed that school's ended and all I'm left with is Final Year Project, which is the toughest part, and also website making for Jet. So, after talking to James on MSN, I decide that, my rest is enough. Tmr, I shall wake up early and finish all the things that I should have done today!

So before then, pure decadence. Hahahahaha... I'm still recovering from my flu and stomach flu, just let me take a break please?

The America Dream

What would you think, if I were to leave this place and go to somewhere 30 hours of flight away? Would you miss me? I'm sure you would, rite??? Jus say you would to please me. I... may be going away to America for a few months, from September onwards. It's still tentative as of the time being. My aunt wants to go there to take a break from her life, and if she likes it there, we'll stay longer, if not we'll just be there for a month. We'll have to wait for her friend to come to Singapore before knowing if we're going over.

I can imagine the life over there, it should be fun. I can work part time as an ice cream girl, or finally be the dream job of my life, a waiteress! Everyone says it'd be dangerous for me to work as a waiteress coz I'm so clumsy. But, in America, there's no one there to dissuade me anymore! haha... Call me crazy, I don't care. I wish for a life, so simple yet so blissful, which is difficult to get in Singapore now. There's stress everywhere. My family asking me to look for a job suitable for a graduate, KL talking about WBG biz again and again (haha.. no offense), and so many responsibilities to look after. I just thought.. I'm starting to look so inwards that I forget about the needs of others. Perhaps if I can just get away, and finally do things I want to do, and live life simply without worrying about anything, I can finally let go and accomplish things that I need to do. Paradoxical?

When my aunt first told me of the idea, I swiftly replied her, "of course I'll go with you".
She was so shocked, but happy.

"Are you able to just let go of everything you have now?"

To tell the truth, I'm not really letting go. It's because I cherish the things I have now, that I feel I should leave. But of course, it's still not confirmed that we're leaving. Just a maybe. But I feel that I should explain why I'm so keen on leaving. It's not that I don't like living in Singapore. I love it here, so I wanna expose myself more. Perhaps, by the time I'm back, I can do great photography shots, and I know more about nutritional knowledge. There's so much room for thoughts about the future.

But, while I'm in Singapore, I better work hard for my future too! And I am! Just fixed Wednesday to study hard with James. Kambatte! While everyone's busy studying for their exams, I'll be busy working on my projs and earning money. 加油! 加油! 加油!!!

Change

I was adding a picture to my friendster, when I suddenly realize how much I've changed the last few days. Take a look at some pics of the past few years.

Year 2005

Kylie's Bday

Convocation: When I first permed my hair

Makeover before Cindy's Bday

Holistic Fair

SCS

Year 2006

B Team outing at a fantastic 'restaurant'

Trip to China 偶园

Year 2007

Art project group in SMU lounge

I rarely take pictures, so these are most of the pictures I have. I didn't put the makeover pictures in, coz, they are MAKEOVER pictures. No point comparing. Even my aunt don't know the pictures hanging in my room are of me. See the vast difference of these past few years? I don't think many people can recognise me now. I couldn't recognise myself when I see myself in the mirror sometimes too. I think this is the only picture I have of my new hairstyle in 2007. I kinda like this hair style even though my hair stylist chose to do it of my own accord, without my actual permission. I was shocked when I saw how it turned out. But it's really an easy to style hairdo. I can do a princessy style, or a rock style, or even a teacher style, like that in the picture. Sorry I'm not a cam whore, so I don't take many pictures. When I start learning photography or fall in love with being photograph, I'll perhaps post more pics of myself bah. I'm really rambling nonsense today. Haha.. Just wanna share my past pictures and be amazed at my own changes.

Just to share some laughter. I was checking my email today and saw a string of very funny emails sent by my groupmates from my art project. Here's a comic strip sent by Zhen Shen:

Funny Right?? This is only one of the things sent. Haha.. couldn't show all or it may invade on their privacy. Hope you get a great laugh out of this entry.