The Audrey Hepburn Wedding

For those who weren't there at Beth's* wedding, here's some updates of it. Didn't manage to take pictures that day coz... I forgot to bring my cam!!! Duh. So silly...Keke.. And I took some pictures on my handphone but the **** bluetooth of my computer refuse to cooperate with me. So frustrating! So... There's no pictures. My apologies for it.

Anyway, the wedding's featured in Straits Times!! It was the first time a wedding is held in the Victoria Concert Hall so the news crew is there to catch it. Beth and Peter also donated $1000 from the wedding red packets to the Straits Times' School Pocket Money Fund.

Everyone was sitted in the concert hall to view the solemnization ceremony. I was sitting on the circle seats with Annie, Cynthia, Guoyao and Hengwai coz Cynthia has to help out with the DJ console. It was a good view. We could see everyone from on top.

Beth's wedding dress is really gorgeous. But it looks sooooooooooooo HEAVY! She nearly couldn't move up the stage coz of the dress. Later on she told me the dress weighed more than 10kg!!! Can you believe it? *faints* I think I won't be able to walk with that weight on me... And Beth is more slim than I am.. Wow! Hee.. I guess women will prefer beauty than convenience especially on their wedding day.

The theme was Audrey Hepburn so everyone was supposed to dress like them. But most of us just didn't. Keke.. Very troublesome lehz... But I saw a few people who looked exactly like Audrey Hepburn. They're Jo's friends - Michelle and Esther both who were in WBG. Michelle was simply a replica of Audrey Hepburn with her tall birdnest hair, big sunglasses and gloved hands. And of course she won the competition with another guy called Mr Woon (If I didn't remember wrongly).

The only hiccup in the wedding was when the search for Audrey Hepburn lookalikes was on. The powerpoint slides couldn't be done on time so they had to just look for the winners at the reception. The winning prize was good. There's Indinine and some other prizes! Think got Dating Loft's package too. Hehe... Prizes worth more than $300 lehz... Shucks! I should have dressed up as Audrey Hepburn before I go. Anyway, too late..

Here's the article on Beth's wedding in Straits Times.

*PS: For those who don't know, Beth was the Head of Assistant Coaches (AC) in WBG, and owns a joint venture Dating Loft company with her friends which was featured in magazines and news earlier this year.

** Some of the above mentioned may be inaccurate. Do correct me if so. ^_^

I AM A GENIUS!

I'm so hooked to looking at my revamped blog~ So proud of myself! Keke.... Ok.. I know it's not much of a big deal. But I manage to change it in a few hours when I'm sick lei... Plus the fact that I was already sickened by programming, I can still bring myself to look at the HTML codes again and didn't know I can do it so fast.

Preparing to go to Beth's wedding le. I'll try to upload the picturez tonight. Till then~

New Blog!

Tada~~!!! I've changed the outlook of my blog. I've also moved my tags to my new shoutbox. It looks so cool with all the special smilies. Phew~ Didn't know I still remember how to edit the HTML codings. Glad I've succeeded in this. I'll be revamping more of it when I've time. Maybe add a flash somewhere, and some nice picture layouts. Hope you like it. ^_^

CHANGE

Will be revamping my blog to prepare for a new phase in life. The big bang change is coming!

Opps~

Today's Emcee event is postponed. Will let you guys know when it's confirmed when it'll be held. It turns out to be a good thing though. Fell even more sick today. Ha... Going to see a doctor at night with Melvin.

Punggol Lodge
Was discussing about the flat with Mel yesterday. He thinks that the flat will be oversubscribed coz of the high demand. Sigh... Hopefully we can get it. Punggol Lodge will only be done in 2012. If wait for the next project, dunno how long it'll be... I want my own house!! Blahx.

We've sent in the HDB Loan Eligibility (HLE) form to get the HDB loan le. Hopefully we can get it too. I'll be going about to do the HDB loans and housing application next week. Pray hard for us that we get it k?? ^_^

Tmr's Beth's wedding, and the theme retro is out again. I'll probably just go normally but it'll be fun to go around with my camera and find anyone who dresses retro. Stay tune for pictures of tmr. ^_^

Random Babblings

Today's entry is really a series of random babblings. Brain can't really function coz not feeling so well. Ha~ Fell sick these few days and didn't really recover. Had to miss out my Iris Analyst test today.. Blahx.. Got to retake only a few months later liaoz. Sigh. So do bear with me if my entry's boring and confusing.

The last Emcee assignment went quite well. Tmr's assignment will be Retro Night. Hee~ Should be quite fun though I still don't know what to wear. Just saw the repertoire. There's lindy hopping and other performances. If you wanna come, it's at Square 2, 6-7pm. ^_^

Anyway... Was really busy the last few days though I was mostly at home. To those who don't know, I haven't started work yet. So these few days was looking through and applying for job. At first really wanna go UMC to work, but coz gotta wait a few months before knowing if they accept me, I'm looking for other jobs as well. It's a real big headache... So many jobs in the market... To look at all before deciding is so......... DIFFICULT! If you got any jobs anywhere to recommend do let me know. I'm looking for frontline jobs of at least 2K takehome and little/no OT. Keke~ I know I'm quite picky when choosing a job. I just feel that if wanna do, then do all the way and perform to the best. If don't wanna do, then totally don't do. So I want a job which I like and will work hard when I'm at it, and the pay is good enough to let me stay on. Yes. I Love MONEY. ^_^

Mel's been pretty busy with almost everything lately... Work, Grassroots and his tuition biz... His tuition biz is preparing to start now, so we've got many meetings to prepare for the opening. But everything's going well between both of us. Ever since his SCS in WBG, we've been doing quite well. We do have our occasional quarrels and fights, but we settle all of those very fast. Time seems to fly. Today's our 5th month anniversary already~ Hee~ Happy Anniversary Dar~ Love ya~!!! *Muackx*

Next week we'll be going to Genting to take a break from his busy schedule. Can't wait to sit on the rollercoasters and the sky drop!! It'll be so fun!!! Will update more after my trip there.

Just saw a news ad on a new Build to Order Flat today. It's so... NICE!!!

Punggol Lodge

There's quite a lot of facilities nearby too

Mel and I will be trying our chances and apply to see if we can get. Hopefully can get it~ It really looks nice and there's watersports facilities. I love anything to do with the water... I really hope to live in Punggol... But it's quite ex... Was calculating and calculating and calculating.. No wonder people say buying a house in Singapore is our first biggest investment. Phew~ Just a 4 room flat costs $190,000 - $234,000 for a mere 90sqm..!!! Sigh... So... better work hard in looking for a job... If you got any nice jobs, do let me know~ And don't go apply the same flat as ours. Later cannot get. keke...

Wish me luck!

I've another Emcee assignment tmr and next friday. Gotta find some funkish clothes for the Hip Hop - Fast and Furious theme. What the *** is funkish??? Wish me luck~

Dreams - Part 1

Before I begin today's posting on dreams, I just wanna say, my dad used his own way to apologise to me today. Hee~ He specially came home during lunch hour to give me a packet of vegetarian western food (which he'd almost never buy for me) . ^_^

I know all my life that my dad is very MCP and always quick with his words. And when he becomes obnoxious, normally he can't sleep well at nght. But still his words pricked me a lot. Though I'm not completely healed, I'm glad my dad took a step back.

Life's good. Hee~ Especially when I've someone like Melvin always by my side (spiritually). Love you dar~~!!

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Back to Dreams!

Today I went with Irene (Melvin's friend in case you don't know) to KTV in Hougang Plaza K Box to unleash all the suppressed emotions in me. All of a sudden, a phonecall came and I had to go for an event at night!!! So sudden! Haha.. I wanted to rest at home tonight coz hadn't been sleeping well lately so was feeling unwell. But anyway~ it was really lucky that I went to the event at night.

It was a Thank You dinner at Mavis Tuition Centre's boss house. I also dunno what Thank You dinner it was, and didn't know the boss as well. But since got pp treat you to dinner, just go lo. Haha~ Typical Kiasu Singaporeans. Blahx!

I went to that place with Melvin and his friends. When we reached there, Melvin and I were so wow-ed away by the grandness and size of the mansion. It's like the grandest house I've ever seen in Singapore. Maybe I'm just sua gu, but then... it's really so nice!! Like palace like that! And all of these came from a once small tuition centre. I'm impressed!!! Just to describe some of the things that blew me away.

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1) A 3 level mansion with a porch that lets you park more than 5 cars

2) 2 full-size knights (decorations) at lobby of the main entrance

3) A sound-proof theatre at the basement which you can also use for karaoke session

4) A big Jacuzzi bath tub

5) The bathroom is bigger than my room! What the ***

6) The shower is those kinda massaging kind!! VERY EX one!! (so tempted to try it out just now)

7) Store/Guest room that is the size of my living room

8) There're so many beautiful ornaments, statues etc everywhere that it looks like it's exported from The Sims (How can anyone spend so much on such exquisite decorations???)

9) The young masters of the house is two very handsome, jappy eurasian kinda guys!!!! Too bad they're both married. One's called Melvin. Hehe~

10) The family's doing Mavis Tuition Centre together. Both sons are teaching at Mavis. Shows how close the family's working together to get this biz going.

11) The house is going to be torn down by the end of this month coz the family's rarely at home and the developer wants to use it to build 8 BUNGALOWS, not terraces or semi-ds. (Imagine how big the place is???)

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After viewing the place, Melvin, his friends and I were flabbergasted. Melvin and I have decided to work really hard from now to get a life as good as this and of course, a close-knitted family (I add one). I believe we'll be able to see the results in 20 years time. ^_^

I want to live my life...

I haven't blog for quite some time. To say the truth, I've just been rather moody lately. And I don't like to blog when I'm unhappy because I don't like to disclose things that are dear to me to others. But maybe I'd feel better after writing it down and finally embrace the matter more light-heartedly.

I just read ace baby's blog, with a quite recent entry from Angel (his mum). That cliques a lot with what I've been feeling. After the last POV with Master Hiromi in January this year, I opened up a lot of my feelings. In the past, my feelings were all locked up. I don't know what I'm feeling most of the time, and don't know why I'm feeling my feelings. I can be suddenly very depressed, yet when my friends ask me why, I don't even have the answer. I'll ponder many times over what exactly I was feeling and why I feel depressed, but I simply don't know. I was a walking zombie. I can smile, I can cheer people up, I can be very ecstatic and enthusiastic about everything, but I can't make myself happy. I'd hide at home and cry or just do nothing. Or I'd spend $400 in a store buying just a few pieces of clothes, or I'd just eat. But nothing really makes me happy.

After POV, my feelings unlocked. I can feel. I can love. I got myself a wonderful boyfriend, and know that I can live my own life and search for my own meaning in life. At the same time, my anger is also unleashed. I realize I am so angry with my parents. After POV, I find it difficult to really talk to my family members especially my dad and my aunt or whoever wants me to just follow whatever they say. In the past, I could act-as-if everything didn't matter, as long as I love them it doesn't matter how they treat me and they'd reciprocate in the end. I can pretend to be nice and everything because I can't feel. But now that I can feel, it's so difficult... It's just so so difficult...

It's to the point that I really hate my dad... I hate him for being so MCP and all that he does just so that he is powerful over me and makes me feel powerless. I hate him for making me feel so unloved and powerless over my own life, and I hate myself for hating him. I understand that he really loves me a lot. I know that it is a fact, and that he just don't know how to express himself. But the way he's treating me and the way he's making everyone treat me really drives me crazy. The way he humiliates me in front of others, the way he wants me to listen to him and follow, the way he makes me know that I have no rights at all, the way he makes everyone blame me, the way he drives me away... I cannot stand it anymore. All I want to do is to leave. Leave and give each other space so that we can start loving each other. My tears can't stop flowing, my heart can't stop breaking. It feels terrible...

I want to own my own life. My life is mine, and no others. No one can take it away from me no matter who he or she is. It doesn't matter what happens, as long as it is my decision and my way of steering my life. It is mine. I will put in all my heart and soul to live it, and to choose the way I live it. I will work to my best, play to my best, love to my best, and contribute to my best. I will die the day knowing I had lived my own life, and no one has the right to manipulate my life. If in the process of making my own decisions I've hurt anyone, making them think I don't care for them at all, I'm really sorry... I just want to live my life.. It doesn't mean you are not important to me if I don't listen to you. Do you understand? Can you just love me for who I am? Because I really love you... Why isn't all that I've done ever be good enough for you?