Exactly 21 more days!

Oh my god oh my god oh my god!!!!! It's just 21 more days before my wedding!!! Feeling damn nervous now. Went for my trial make up on saturday noon with Liren. Prob I'm having pre-marriage anxieties ba. Can't sleep much lately, always tensed, and easily paranoid. Really felt that the makeup she did for me was super ugly... I tot my eyes look swollen, eye brows too long and hideous, skin looks bad and the blusher was like so strong that I look like a monkey's ass. Didn't help much that I brought my brother with me for the trial rather than the forever supportive Melvin. My bro just said I look like an apple and make up is 'ok lo'. Hahahaha.... I told Melvin how ugly I thought my make up was, and he almost immediately went to orchard to find me after his work. Funny. He said it's not bad. In my mind I just thought he didn't want me to be upset so said it was not bad. Then I met my gal friends for hen's night, and they said it was nice too. But.... you never know right?? Maybe they dun wanna hurt my feelings by saying it's ugly seeing that I paid $1K for Liren. Regardless, I was so upset, I can't sleep well for the past nights thinking that my make up was hideous, and how I would not wanna see anyone on my wedding night. Ya. Ridiculous. How to not see anyone?

Anyway, got the pics from wanlin yesterday and thought, ok la. I looked more human in her pics. Dun care le. Think everything will go smoothly that day and I'm just being super paranoid now. But it still doesn't change the fact that the trial make up sucks! Blahx. Liren's portfolio looked so much better la. I miss Cherry (my taiwan make up artist).. sighx..