Long Time no POST~~

Lately haven’t been posting much on blog. The main thing was.. no inspiration, another was that didn’t had time to “geng” inspiration. Ha.. Last time nothing to do so can always find ways to get inspiration to write, especially when stuck at home doing FYP plus just got a boyfriend. Now gotta think, what can be written and what not, and inspiration to write.

First good news to share, I’m FINALLY OFFICIALLY A GRADUATE!!! Hahaha.. Got my graduate letter and invitation to commencement on Monday. Feeling really shiok now! Now I’m free to look for the future I want and head towards it, or sorta.

I’m now one month into a new relationship. Just realize it’s really not easy maintaining a good relationship. Sometimes really feel that it’s a difficult route to walk. In the past, I’m free to do whatever I want, arrange my schedule as and when I like. But now, decisions are to be made in pairs. Maybe I’m just not used to it bah. I’m too used to the freedom I had for the past 2 plus years. Suddenly with another person sharing your life, it feels restrictive at times, and my moods swing with him. I always thought I understood how it is like being in a relationship. Suddenly I realize, I don’t. I finally understand why Wanlin will say the taboo “break up” words when she’s very pissed or upset. Ha… It takes one to know one bah. He’s a nice guy, but sometimes we’ll quarrel over different point of values and beliefs. Many a times I wonder, why are we so alike, yet so different. Haha…

On Monday, I went over to Melvin’s place for dinner. Phew. Was really nervous then. Haven’t had a formal meet with his family before, and I’ve to go there alone first. Melvin was stuck in his army camp. Was so nervous that day I started calling people asking for advice. Luckily I managed to get Joanne and she msged me some things that’ll help. Called Wanlin and got some advise from her and stress relief. Actually I really called quite a few people, but it turns out that only Joanne and Wanlin answered to the call of distress at that moment. Stef msged hours later to offer her advise too. Good thing I had their lifelines to call. It’s only with Melvin that I realize, I never had the opportunity to understand how to deal with Boyfriend’s Family. Last time with my ex, I don’t have to do anything. Just follow him about and do what he do can liaoz. His parents were so nice to me too. Hee.. not saying that Melvin’s wasn’t. But I never had to observe the “don’t close doors when you’re at the guy’s house”, nor “put up a good girlfriend’s show by washing all the plates if possible” nor “buy bird’s nest”. Haha.. I didn’t manage to put up the show of washing the plates coz his mum insisted, but I didn’t close door when we’re in his room, and I bought Bird’s nest. Haha… Score point! *ding dong ding dong* Phew. Was really nervous before going sia. But I’m really really glad I went. One thing I found out, his family are really nice people. Hee.. not as scary as I thought they would be.

Melvin’s place was near primary and secondary school. Before going to his place, I was at my tuition so had to travel there by 72. I’d gone back to my old place to buy 饺子 for his parents from the block across. It’s been 9 years since I’ve moved from here to Sengkang. Along the way to my old place, I passed by the Macdonald that my good friends and I spent our free time after our CCA.

Hougang Ave 8, around Blk 681: Macdonald

I was from St John’s Ambulance Brigade (SJAB) when I was in Secondary School. Most of the times our trainings were until late at night, and we really had either loads of trainings or lots of activities. Don’t ask if I enjoyed myself then. There’s no such thing as enjoying SJAB in my secondary school. It can be labeled more as torturing sessions and sessions of unleashing one’s frustrations for the higher ranks. But, I can’t deny that I really lots of things in my CCA. I learnt archery (3 years), canoeing (3 years), the art of non-stop marching that you can even do that while sleeping, perseverance for physical activities (at least 70 pumpings each session), forget the meaning of pain (try doing pumping in 30 over degrees of hot sun on the car park ground), the meaning of no freedom (you can’t even quit the CCA even if you want to), being a nurse attendant, the meaning of ego-less (try doing pumping with your boots across your neck and primary school students walking by and laughing at you). I think it was my trainings from SJAB that I manage to last my days till now. Ha… that I can not be afraid of 丢脸 nor not being recognized for my efforts. Blahx. But anyway, those were the ‘living in hell’ days. But that’s not to say I don’t have my happy moments. Every time after our CCA, Yuan, Xue, Jin and me will come to this Mac and eat fries, chat and sing along with its speakers outside Mac. Hee.. Hmmm.. Until everyone from my school was banned from going to this Mac bah. And it’s just coz someone fought there with people from Montfort. Duh…

My old house: Hougang Ave 4, Blk 603

This place brings back lots of memories. It’s the place where I’ve grown up. I still remember the times when we played hide and seek in the entire block. The neighbours around were all so nice, and we couldn’t finish our visiting during Chinese New Year every time. We can go from door to door at the whole level 5 on our stretch of the flat. I was even baby-sitted by two of my neighbours. Gone were the times when we were still young and had lots of expectations of the future. And now, here I am, from the future, looking and reminiscing my past.

Divine Realm Vegetarian Restaurant: Hougang Ave 4, Opposite Blk 603

The vegetarian food from opposite my place is really marvelous. This place was only open in the recent years.

It serves very nice 饺子,锅贴 and many other food. Really… Oishii! If possible do go and try it, and it’s not expensive too. ^_^


I was almost reaching Melvin’s place when I spotted this really cute and nice car. Just feel that I have to share it with everyone. Isn’t it nice???

A front view…

Wah seh!!! Nice! *Jumps up in joy* So glad I took the pictures. Hehe…

Xinmin Primary School: Hougang Ave 8

My primary school and secondary school was linked together in the past, but now it’s separated by a field. I was from Xinmin Primary (XMP), and went to Xinmin Secondary (XMS) after my PSLE. My schools really changed a lot since I was last in it, which was more than 10 years ago. Oppz. Haha… It’s really a very beautiful school now. From the picture above, it looks a little like a prison, but it’s coz of the fence.

A view of the backdoor of XMP. The little girl in uniform was how I had once looked like too. Hahaha… Cute?

Xinmin Secondary School: Hougang Ave 8

According to Melvin, this was a Ah Beng, Ah Lian school in the past so he never went. For your information, it’s not k… It’s not as prestigious as many higher ends schools (like Maris Stella or Chinese High), but the discipline was really strict in XMS. And because my batch did really well in O’ levels, we even became an autonomous school from a neighbourhood school. Blahx!

Looking at the entrance of XMS, I don’t even dare to go in. I still remember when I was in SJAB, I had to stand guard at this very door for a few hours at night just coz we had a SJAB training camp. *shivers* Sleepless nights coz of reason-less fire drills and whatever other drills. *SHIVERS* Don’t ask me if I missed my times in SJAB.

But I did like studying in school. Hee.. in fact, I loved studying. I can still remember the times when I was mugging alone at home in my room for hours and hours. And of course, the number of books that I have read coz I was such a book worm. Just give me any book and I can sit there for hours reading till I complete it, forgetting about my meals or even taking a shower. And also the time when I was at Mingjie’s place, putting down 6 art homeworks and doing it with her all at a time. Erm… they were my friends’ homeworks. Haha… But I enjoyed myself doing them. In sec 4, I was even third in class during prelims, and the first two were guys. So, I’m the first in class for gals!! Haha.. ok. I have this ‘Must be the best’ gene in me, ok? But in the end, I didn’t do well for my O’ levels. Only got 13 points. 1 point more and I would have been in AJC. Shucks! Cried in the toilet for a long long time. My mum had to console me over the phone. My friends were confused over why someone will cry over 13 points. Ha… It’s just coz… I’m not the best! Haha.. everyone had 13 points lehz… and I couldn’t stay in AJC. My ex-colleague Anthea (colleague of my mum then) even gave me a bookmark to console me days after.

It’s so amazing and ironical that I only knew Melvin now, when we had lived so close together before. There must have been many times we brushed past each other whilst going about living our lives. And to think that only after we’re together, we realized we lived so near before, had taken part in the same competition before in SMU, and we knew some of each other’s project mates and friends. Haha.. really… 向左走向右走. If not for the time we met each other on the streets towards SMU, and I entertained him by answering his questions, we wouldn’t have really known each other or even be together.

Just to re-enact the scene where we met each other.
*Some of the dialogues are pieced together from my memory so they may not sound exactly the same or of the exact sequence.

Melvin: Hi, You’re from my Ethics class rite? (What a pick-up line! Haha..)
Wei Lin: Eh… Is it? Hmmm… I don’t remember.
Melvin: I’m Alwin’s friend.
Wei Lin: Oh… Alwin’s friend! Oh ya… Hi. (Alwin was my project mate. Actually I still have no impression of him)
Melvin: Are you Singaporean? (trying to create topic)
Wei Lin: Eh… Why do you say that? I’m already speaking English. You mean my English sounds weird? (frustrated that everyone thinks I’m from M’sia or China when I speak Chinese, coz Singaporeans don’t speak fluent chinese)
Melvin: Oh no no… It’s just that you look like you’re from Taiwan or Hongkong.
Wei Lin: (Flattered)

Parting coz we’ve reached school.

Melvin: You wanna exchange contact?
Wei Lin: Sure. You send me a message of your msn and friendster email if you have lorz. (coz I’m a networker! And you said i look like Taiwanese)

Ahem. And that’s how we met. Lolx… And after we got together, I realize that we were from the same ethics class, just that I don’t remember him at all though he said we had talked before, and took part in the same Technology World Change project competition (I even remember his project and remembered talking to people at his booth, but not him!), and had the same project groupmates. *chiang chiang chiang chiang* Talk about fate. Ha! We missed each other so many times, it’s really fate to meet again. Whether it’s a good fate for good or not, let’s just see bah. Too early to tell. ^_^

FREE!

I'm finally a graduate~!!! Yeah~!!! Just need to wait for the letter to come and I’d be able to register for commencement!! ^_^

Battle of The Voices Competition

I've added a new link at my side bar. If you're interested in being the next Superstar of Singapore, do check out the link Battle of The Voices. This is an island wide event organized by Punggol CC to give opportunities to voice talents of all ages to showcase their talents and sponsored by big companies like Bugis Street. The rewards are enticing~! With an Artiste Management Contract and $10,000 worth of prizes (for youth category). Too bad I can't join coz my throat hasn't recovered yet. The event is covered in 优周刊 as well. Just saw the advertisement on it yesterday. All songbirds and nightingales, rise up to the occasion!

Bitten by the Love Bug

Lately I’ve been preoccupied with FYP so haven’t been able to do other stuff. But yesterday after sending half of it to my prof, feels much better. Just gotta finish everything by this wed so that I don’t have to worry about it anymore in my life. Phew. Feeling so tired now. I’ve been awake since around 5.30am. Melvin’s been coming to stay quite often lately coz we’re in our honeymoon period but not much chance to meet each other, other than at night.

Hmmm... There’s really a big difference in him staying and not staying. At first I thought, only not seeing for one day ma, nothing much. It’d be good if a couple can miss each other. But last night we tested out. Haha.. after one night of him going back, last night he came over to stay. The morning’s really more beautiful just because I wake up with him sleeping in the next bed. There’s a motivation to wake up in the morning just because he’s beside. Maybe I’m just bitten by the love bug. But the sky’s more beautiful, and the roads look refreshing. Even FYP work looks appealing to me. Haha… As I read through my blogs and emails, I came across Annie’s blog and saw something which relates very well to what I was feeling.

谢谢爱

雨下好乱 半个夜晚
你不在身边怎么晚安
天好蓝 要和你一起看
起风时由你来温暖
心事简单 一句说完
要我们永远不会分开
有眼泪 也因为你灿烂
你微笑因为我盛开

要谢谢爱 让你
在我身边守护我的未来
有多少美丽奇迹
你手心里全都记载 好期待

要谢谢爱 让我
学会宽容学会体谅关怀
像阳光陪着大海 是平静还是澎湃
都是爱

But even though so, I guess I’m still not mature enough. To love someone is easy, but to commit forever still seems a lil scary to me. But as time goes by, we’ll grow with each other ba. Really love him lots.

Sick of the love-struck me? Read something new!

Haha.. But I think always blogging bout all these will turn people off. What’s up with all these love birds nowadays? As if people wanna know how lovey dovey they are! Haha.. Is that what you’re thinking? But ok larz.. I understand. So I shall now talk about other stuff.

This wed is a really incredible night. There’ll be a sharing by a multimillionaire banker and 2 millionaire entrepreneurs on their success stories and essential life skills. It’s a free preview seminar worth $68 per session.

Do click on this link to Annie’s blog to check out the details.

If you want to register for the session, do let me know ASAP coz it’s tmr. I know it’s late. But I was too busy to type it in ma… Ok. That’s an excuse. Haha.. Don’t care. Just let me know if you want to come. ^_^

Vision

The other day, I used 3 cards to find out how to resolve issues between Melvin and I, and I got these Judgement, Trust, Vision.

I had been frustrated by all my troubles during that period of time when I did it. Judgement was due to my guilt that I hadn’t been able to accomplish things, hence I passed judgements on others and was frustrated. But with trust, the gift of Vision will come. I’d done the 3 cards for another time in office also of similar issue, and the gift I got was also vision.

In the past, I’ve always been a person of many dreams and ideals, but no ways of accomplishing them. I’m a dreamer, a thinker, but more of a NATO (No Action Talk Only). Ha… Seeing Melvin, I start to understand what is Action and less talk. Everything he says, he means it and does it. I said, let’s go eat durians ok? He says, ok, and he brings you there the next day. I said, I feel like going to Sentosa. He says, ok, let’s go. He says, I should look for a job. Next minute you see him flipping through news and sending emails to his high ranking networks. And next day he’ll get a reply. It’s like, he means what he says, which is something I lack. There’s a lot of things to be accomplished, and he doesn’t run away. He says, no choice, these things have to be done. And he does it. It’s seeing him that gives me strength to do the things I need to do and not run away when I see obstacles.

I’ve not been a strong person. I always thought I had been for the last few years. But now I realize, all these times I’ve been running away from my responsibilities. WBG had been a really wonderful place where I get to learn a lot of things, and practice doing business. But I’ve really been just PRACTISING, and not running a business. I’ve been shirking responsibilities of taking on leadership roles, participating actively and following up my customers. Whenever I see things I’m afraid to do or take up, I’ll hide behind KL’s back, Longsheng’s back or Jet’s back. I’ll hand my business partners or consumers to them to help me follow up. I’ve only been doing what I like, and not what is necessary. I’ve only been saying what I should do, but rarely doing. With Melvin beside me, I really hope this time I can be both action and talk, and really do this business well. With him,I can finally see and feel vision as if it will come true, that this vision from the future is guiding me towards it.

My mum asked me today," you’re going to do WBG for the rest of your life meh?" I said, "of course lah!"

Melvin asked me, "if I get overseas Expat job, would you go with me?" I said, "of course lah! I’m a networker lehz. Can work anywhere onez." Haha…

How to find such a good business that entry level is so low, and acceptance level for failure is so high? If I’m in the outside world working, I’d have been fired. If I’m in the outside world with my own business running, I’d have become bankrupt. If I’m in the corporate world, my boyfriend wants to go overseas to work, I can only stay in Singapore and wait for him to come back so that we can meet up. If I’m in the corporate world, I won’t be able to take leaves as and when I like. If I’m in the corporate world, I’ll have to work really hard to support my family and my future family. If I’m in the corporate world, I won’t have the flexibility of doing what I like anytime I want.

It’s true in WBG I need to work hard too. But I can see the rewards in terms of customer satisfaction, the changes in the lives of people I come into contact with, the money earned is much more, and it’s what I like. Pray hard that this time my enthusiasm will last me for a very long time. Melvin says that he’ll support me in doing WBG full time for this year. Must show him results by the end of the year ar… If not it’s really NATO again. Blahx. Anyway, he’s going this coming SCS!!! So excited!! Can’t wait to see him during and after SCS. I’m sure he’ll finally understand why I’m so in love with WBG, and hopefully keen enough to want to do it together with me. ^_^

Stress

Lately, I’m really stressed up. My FYP is due before this mon, and I’m still far from finishing it. Working on it now, and this week I am grounded at home. Sigh. I’m very afraid of being bounded now, and being grounded at home really makes me feels so frustrated. Had also been so frustrated with everything coz felt like there’re so many things to resolve. All of a sudden, all the other things disappeared and all that is left is FYP because it is very very urgent. Ha.. I don’t know why, but I feel more relieved. I really need a thing to focus on. I’m not good at being able to focus on more than one thing at a time.

It’s lucky that at this time Melvin’s with me, and KL is understanding on WBG biz. Blahx. Because of my brother’s pent up stress from his school exams and things, both of my brothers fought over something silly – watching television. Luckily Melvin was at my place last night to stop them, and prevent things from being worse. I know my brothers won’t fight too badly or anything, but still… it’s difficult to watch them two fight like that, and my mum being very angry and upset. Bah. I don’t know. Maybe with Melvin, my brothers will get a chance to use their extra energy on other things. They probably just need an ‘older brother’ to guide them. A sister is only emotional support ba. Sigh.

But after everyone sorta cooled down, Melvin brought me out to Geylang to eat beancurd and durians. It was really very enjoyable. As if all of a sudden, nothing matters. It’s only these few days that I have to bear and after that the journey will be easier to tread on. He seems to always be able to cast magic when we are together. I really can’t believe a month ago I’m pushing him away as far as I can, yet now I’m so madly in love with him.

Going out for a stroll and some food made me relaxed… but after that, my project mate called me 2+am in the morning. Ha.. Became very stressed again. Got to meet my prof for FYP at 11am the next morning, which is today. I was so stressed up that I lied on my sofa, and msged James just to tell him I’m stressed. Didn’t want to go back to bed for some time, but just lay on the sofa till morning. But in the end, I still went back to bed.

Today, I met my prof, and know that I still got a long way for completing my FYP (even though the deadline is before mon). But I really feel much more relieved. Perhaps it’s coz I know Melvin will be here to support me emotionally if I can’t bear the stress. Perhaps it’s coz I know he won’t mind that I’m so easily stressed up. Perhaps it’s coz I know he’ll always be here to stand by me whenever I need him. Perhaps it’s coz I know that I’m no longer alone in facing problems. Perhaps it’s coz I know he loves me for whatever kind of person I am. Perhaps it’s everything.

Read This!!!

I’m posting a disclaimer!!! Haha.. Everyone seemed to think that KL is forcing me to take sides between WBG and Melvin. Actually, he didn’t la… I apologize for my indiscrete choice of words. He made me FEEL like I’m forced to make a choice. In actual fact, that’s not the case. He’s really supportive of my relationship with Melvin. In the first place, it was he who helped Melvin chase me, and ‘persuaded’ me to go out with him and accept him. He also gave us his blessings. Hee..

On Saturday, we all weren’t in a good mood coz we got a scolding by Jet due to lack of eagerness in work. KL thought I had been too busy with Melvin so I lose focus on biz, so I got scolded. And one of it was that he said it is difficult to concentrate on both biz and relationship, if the relationship is with one outside WBG. Coz our values and beliefs will be different, and that I won’t have time for both. So, he didn’t force me to make a choice. He was just angry, and said those things, which are what he felt too. It may not be right or wrong, but it was for my own good. He was worried for me larz… And… I AM NOT ANGRY WITH KL for anything at all. I was impacted by the things he said of choosing both sides, coz I’m really afraid that one day I have to choose either or. So… *shrugx* It’s really nothing much to do with KL. Haha.. Only my own worries of one day I am forced to make a choice, (thinks of the future… *shakes head*) which I DON’T WANT! Blahx.

Déjà vu

Have you been with someone for only 12 days, and have so much 默契 with him that both of you will do the same things, or say similar things at the same time? It’s like… so eerie!!!! Yesterday coz was frustrated by all the things I need to do, I went out on a binge. And this time, Melvin followed me. Poor him… Think he really ate a lot yesterday. We were supposed to just drop by Hougang Mall for dessert before going home, but in the end, I pulled him into Ichiban Sushi.

Déjà vu 1
We were like sitting there, ordering our food, when the waitress asked if we have any last order entry. At the same time, we said “… Mayo”. The waitress couldn’t get what we said and looked at both of us. We were both shocked and looked at each other. Haha.. Weird! Actually I wanted to order egg mayo sushi, and he wanted the waitress to get mayonnaise. What a weird coincidence. And they both sounded like the same thing.
Never mind. We move on to the next Déjà vu.

Déjà vu 2
We were eating when I wanted to take the potato croquette he left half for me. I don’t know why, but I just moved my hand to his side of the table and took a clean plate from the stack that he stacked up. And he did the exact same thing!!! At the exact same time, he moved his hand to my side of the table and took a clean plate from the stack that I stacked up. Again, both of us look at each other, shocked. Hahahaha… As if not enough, both of us shrugged at the same time about the silly thing we just did. Déjà vu 3!

How eerie is that??? He’s like a mirror reflection of me, and I of him. I never had to really complete the sentence I want to say, coz he’ll complete it for me. and… I’m supposedly grounded now to complete my FYP, but I haven’t start on it yet. Instead I’m here typing my blog, when all of a sudden... he msged!

Have you started on your work yet??

Scary!!!! I must check whether I got any spy cams in my room liaoz.

But speaking of monitoring me on my FYP, my mum is extremely happy lately. She thinks that there’s finally a person who can control me liaoz. Duh… She made me do my FYP with Melvin sitting next to me to monitor me… Grrr…. My family seems to really like Melvin. They invited him to come any day he wants, and come for dinner everyday if he wants. My mum even said she’d ask my dad and see if they can remount the fan so that Melvin won’t be hot if he comes to stay over my place (sleeping on another bed, that’s why the fan can’t reach that corner). I really wonder if my room is my room or his. Duh. But my dad said, no need to remount. Blahx! I win! ^_^

But… it’s ok larz. Hee.. I really like his company. With him next to me, I can concentrate on my work, yet accompany him. And… he can play guitar!!! Men who plays guitar are mesmerizing you know! This sun we’ll be reformatting the layout of my room so that if he comes over to stay, there’ll be space. ^_^

Talking about everything under the stars

Being Upset

I had a quarrel with KL last night. It was really nothing much. But don’t know why, I felt so upset about it. I guess it’s because I feel that I’m forced to make a choice between WBG and Melvin. There is never a choice between them both. It’s like, I ask you to choose, you want your mother or you want your father? I feel like a child being forced to take sides. I was really upset, and called Stef up to talk to her and get her advice. The last time, I happened to talk to her coz of IA (Iris Analyst) shift, and she gave me very good advise which made me handle things better. This time, I called her again.

What she said made me understand better why I was upset. There is a POV going on from thurs till sun, and she had gone to it. Just nice, I called her yesterday after her POV. She told me, it’s a real coincidence you ask me about this today. In POV, a person in the spotlight actually had such a situation. The person didn’t know how to choose between two things. It turns out that it’s because during childhood, the person was forced to choose between father or mother. For those who’ve been to POV will understand this, but if not, just look at the situation simply. I felt upset coz I felt that I’m forced to choose and take sides. The subconscious in me reminded me of the feeling of the past when I felt repressed because I’ve to choose between mum or dad, or similar issues.

I don’t know why I typed all these down. Perhaps I just want KL to understand that being with Melvin doesn’t mean I have to take sides, both are doable. I want both my mum and my dad. Haha… I love Melvin, and I love WBG, and KL will forever be my best friend. Ok? ^_^

Oh ya.. I did 3 cards last night coz was too upset so asked it for help. Funny thing is, I only remember my problem is death temptation (again), and can’t remember the other two. Shucks! Why am I always getting death temptation? Duh...

Being Happy

On another note, I’m really very happy recently. Haha… Feel like I’m the luckiest gal on earth! Ok. I always believe I’m the luckiest gal on earth, but now I really am! Ok. Coz I believe in it can? Hehe… I have like so many issues, my fears of intimacy, my haunting memories of the past, but Melvin can just accept it and love me even more for those. He even helps me overcome my fears and phobia... And he’s so sweet….. I really love the stars, and he’s been bringing me to Sentosa, VivoCity, and even at my aunt’s place he can show me the stars. If there’s a theme or mascot to our love, that is… the stars. Hahaha… No matter where we are, he seem to be able to make the place look even more beautiful and romantic just with his presence, even my room with my glow in the dark stars. Ok. Enough of my tee up for him.

Anyway, I went out with him yesterday to meet his friends after my iris analyst session. Phew. So nervous. I’ve not met his friends before. All the time it was only me and my friends, and me and my family. Haha… Everything was about me. Blahx. All of a sudden, gotta meet people around him. But they’re really nice people. From 18 – 30+, a wide age range. And the funny thing was, the first thing that I can strike a conversation is about WBG. Muahahaha.. 不愧是WBG的人!

我生是WBG的人,死是WBG的鬼!

Haha… No choice lar… Nervous mah. But who knows, my business may just grow accidentally from dating right? Haha…

Melvin’s really done so so so much for me. Later we’re going to visit my grandma too, coz she just had an operation. He made my family so happy, and wanlin likes him too. And he has a spy with him in WBG (whom I'll pretend I don't know who. Hee...). So… I’ll work hard to do more for him too. He’s adding so much value into my People Bank that I feel I need to do something. We’re going to POV together in august, and he’s going SCS in June. Really hope he’ll find his dreams and passion in life. ^_^

And... Yesterday I surprised everyone with MJ!!! hehe... he came back from HongKong for his grandma's funeral on wednesday, and no one knows but me. It was a real success, coz everyone was so shocked and happy to see him. Don't know if MJ knows it or not. He just has the effect to calm everyone down and make everyone's day. Everyone had been quite sulky yesterday coz we were scolded by Jet. But upon seeing him, things just went well. But coz of my quarrel with KL, I was the only one who was upset. Haha.. He came back to look for me in my IA room after everyone left. So lose face. Cried in front of him for a long time. I'm supposed to be IA lehz.. Heng yesterday only got 2 clients, and it's at 8.20pm so no one saw other than him. Sigh. Really can't bear to have him leave again today. No more MJ again... Sulks. And he says he might only come back end of the year. Duh... Doesn't that mean I have to teach your kid till he finish PSLE? You 好意思ah?? Blahx. Haha.. Ok larz.. Your kid is nice to teach so nvm lorz... Just come back as and when you deem fit. You're always welcomed and missed. ^_^

The Secret

There’s something which is very very very very...... can’t find a word to describe it. Have you watch “The Secret” and “Death Note”? If not, you have to. Half a year ago, I had written in a book about all my personal stuff. I wrote down 68 criteria I look for in my ideal life partner, goals in life, and other things. One by one, they’re starting to come true without myself realizing. It was only when Melvin asked to see that book (he won me in scissors, paper, stones so I have to let him read. Duh!), that I realize they’re happening. The 68 criteria I look for almost match Melvin perfectly, and the most ‘scary’ thing is that I forgot to write some criteria which I wanted. And…. He happened to not have those criteria. *shivers* One example, I can’t take people who smokes, but he does when I first know him. And I forgot to write that down in the book! Haha.. But he has quitted smoking ever since I said I don’t like people to smoke la. He’s sweet. ^_^

I also wrote, I must get a boyfriend in 2007, and go on Superstar Virgo with my loved one in 2007. Guess what? I got a boyfriend. And yesterday, his friends say wanna go on Superstar Virgo in June. *shivers* I hope all the other things I write will come true too. Haha…

I hope my million dollars will come very soon. *Prays hard*
I want a golden tortoise (金龟婿) *Prays very hard*

Melvin will kill me when he sees this. Haha… I’m praying you’ll become golden tortoise can?? =Pp

Go watch “The Secret” and “Death Note”. If you need, buy “The Secret” online, if not, I’ll help you get bah. Ask me can liaoz. ^_^

Next week onwards, I’m gonna go into WBG biz again. Finally finished busying with my tuition. Next mon will be my last lesson for my tuition gal, then all I’m left with is one P6 boy, whom I will pass back to MJ when he’s back. Kinda nervous to go into it full force again, but at the same time, excited. Haha.. Next week my FYP will be handed in too. Wish me luck!! Wonderful Future, here I come!!! ^_^

Updates on my life 2

So many people has been asking me about this lately, so I thought I’d blog it once and for all, to let everyone know, and at the same time, give thanks for it.

Recently there’s this guy who’s been pestering me, pestering non stop. Ha.. I find him very irritating and a nuisance. I wanted to ask him, “What’s your problem? There’s so many girls in this world, why do you keep bothering me?” I really couldn’t stand him, and at the same time, I’m afraid of him.

Ever since my relationship with Jerry, I have a phobia for men. And I mean it! I have close guy friends, but any guy who wants to chase me, I’d want to chase them away. I’d just be afraid of them and at the same time, angry with them. I’d think, 又是多一个臭男人! All they can think of is chasing after skirts. They’re so superficial, they don’t even know who I am, what makes them want to chase after me.

After attending POV, my phobia started to decrease. I can finally let go bit by bit of my past and forgive myself. Meeting this guy after POV must be the most COINCIDENTAL thing of my life. Haha..

He was from my Ethics class, a friend of my project mate. He said we talked before, but I can’t remember him at all. To me, he was just a passerby I happened to meet on the way to school. We exchanged our telephone number and msn, and went on to our lives. I met him once for tea, not remembering why I went out with him. Possibly it was because he wanted to get into the Arts: East and West class I was in, possibly it was because I wanted to ask him for help with TSM (Tertiary Success Model Workshop). We had a glass of drink in a restaurant in Suntec, and went back on to our lives.

Few months later, in March, he suddenly asked me for help with a poem. I helped him get one from Yong Chun (Turns out that Yong Chun’s twin brother is his buddy, how can there be such a coincidence?), coz he was always writing poems. He said he owed me a meal, and I thought, why not? We had a normal meal, with normal rapport conversation, both trying hard to say things that will engage us in a conversation so that it will not seem weird. After that, we went back on to our lives.

All of a sudden, he msged me about Spiderman 3, and I said I want to watch. Before I know it, I was set up for another outing with him. Duh. How stupid am I? We watched the movie, and after that he continued to ask me out again and again.

By then, I realize that he was trying to chase after me, and started to find him annoying. But because I went to POV, I know it was just a defense wall of mine. I should try to get to know him more before avoiding him. KL forced me to meet him so that I wouldn’t once again, chase away another prospect in business. I really wanted to work together with him in WBG ever since the time we had a drink together. So, I continued to meet him.

Once, he insisted on coming to WBG to take his iris scan. I was so frightened and stressed up then that I had diarrhea for the whole day. Hui Juan told me, “Feel the fright, then after it’s gone, it’ll be alright”. Even though it was just something so simple, I felt much better after that. I did the iris scanning for him when he came and even let him send me home.

But to me, he is still very irritating. Why would a guy keep msging someone when he’s not even a boyfriend or anything? And why the hell would you want to msg me that you hurt your leg or something? I was so irritated coz I felt constrained all of a sudden. I didn’t have a boyfriend, but all of a sudden, I seem to belong to someone. And I don’t even like this someone. Bah.

But I don’t know why, as time passes, his persistency impressed me. I chatted with him on the phone for a whole night, and found that we can communicate well with each other. He knew I liked Sentosa, and immediately brought me to Sentosa the next day when we were supposed to go East Coast Park.

I guess it was the trip to Sentosa that touched me. All my life, I wanted my boyfriend to bring me to Sentosa. I always dreamed to look at the musical fountain with my loved one, and spend the day there. Jerry never did that for me. He only brought me there when his friends want to go there. He remembered what I said, and surprised me. He created memories for me that I always wanted but never had. Even though we only had a few hours before I have to leave for my tuition and work, we enjoyed ourselves. When we went for lunch, he suddenly disappeared and return with a mineral water and a packet of tissue paper. He said it was for me coz I didn’t bring my bottle with me, and perhaps forgot my tissue as well. I was touched by that small move.

After that, he chased me all the way to KL, and did his best to make my business partners and friends like him. Back in Singapore, he bought charcoal baked bread for my family. His persistence, character, and love for me really touched me. Before going for SCS, I finally found myself falling for him, and agreed to be together with him.

He’s really a nice guy, who fitted everything I wanted of my ideal one. It’s true that he has his past, but I have mine too. Meeting him, I finally understand what is being loved and to love. We are like god’s gifts to each other, fitting each other perfectly, understand each other perfectly. It had taken many coincidences for us to get to know each other, get to know each other better, and eventually get together. Though I’ve been together with him for only 8 days, it feels like I’ve known and been with him throughout my life. All my life, I seem to be searching for him, and he has finally appeared.

Melvin, I know you’re reading this. Just want you to know, thanks for being in my life. I love you. ^_^