Exactly 21 more days!

Oh my god oh my god oh my god!!!!! It's just 21 more days before my wedding!!! Feeling damn nervous now. Went for my trial make up on saturday noon with Liren. Prob I'm having pre-marriage anxieties ba. Can't sleep much lately, always tensed, and easily paranoid. Really felt that the makeup she did for me was super ugly... I tot my eyes look swollen, eye brows too long and hideous, skin looks bad and the blusher was like so strong that I look like a monkey's ass. Didn't help much that I brought my brother with me for the trial rather than the forever supportive Melvin. My bro just said I look like an apple and make up is 'ok lo'. Hahahaha.... I told Melvin how ugly I thought my make up was, and he almost immediately went to orchard to find me after his work. Funny. He said it's not bad. In my mind I just thought he didn't want me to be upset so said it was not bad. Then I met my gal friends for hen's night, and they said it was nice too. But.... you never know right?? Maybe they dun wanna hurt my feelings by saying it's ugly seeing that I paid $1K for Liren. Regardless, I was so upset, I can't sleep well for the past nights thinking that my make up was hideous, and how I would not wanna see anyone on my wedding night. Ya. Ridiculous. How to not see anyone?

Anyway, got the pics from wanlin yesterday and thought, ok la. I looked more human in her pics. Dun care le. Think everything will go smoothly that day and I'm just being super paranoid now. But it still doesn't change the fact that the trial make up sucks! Blahx. Liren's portfolio looked so much better la. I miss Cherry (my taiwan make up artist).. sighx..

Living each moment to its fullest

I just completed a grief and bereavement course last week. It opened my eyes to a different part of the world. I knew how life could be sad for some people and mishaps may happen anytime unbeknownst to the people involved. It was just that we don't meet many of those people and it seemed pretty rare for such things to occur. When they do happen, we would feel sad and question why such things happen, and at times, wonder if it would happen to us too. After several days, we would slowly forget about it and continue our lives as it is.

Working at a hospital gave me the opportunity to see how frail life could be, and how devastating some losses could bring to their loved ones. Attending the course with staff who are directly involved with saving the lives of others and facing deaths everyday brought reality to me. Everyone will die one day, and we never know when it would be our turn. We could be well today and gone the next. So it's good for us to start preparing now, by truly living.

"We are always getting ready to live but never living."

"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year. No man has learned anything rightly, until he knows that every day is Doomsday."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

" Life can be found only in the present moment. The past is gone, the future is not yet here, and if we do not go back to ourselves in the present moment, we cannot be in touch with life."
- Thich Nhat Hanh

New Loves~

If you think I'm becoming all sappy just coz I attended the Grief and Bereavement course and deal with negativity everyday, think again! Hehe... Life is short, and so, we must live each day to its fullest. Found a new love in Kate Spade during my date with Melvin on Sunday~ Found these two bags (which I think looks fabulous) on the official Kate Spade website.



Aren't they nice? Check out more of them at www.katespade.com! They're having discounts at Taka and I saw a lookalike of this pink bag for 50%!!!!!!

Happy Birthday to me~!

It's my birthday in half an hour's time!!! hehe...I'm now older and wiser by one year. Will be spending my birthay in Genting for 3 days and 2 nights. So happy now~

My birthday wishes:
1)Earn 10K per month!!!
2)Be forever happily in love with Melvin and for him to always treat me like his princess. keke..
3)Have great achievements in life and work
4)Lesser COMPLAINANTS in Singapore. lolx
5)Attractive and young forever!
6)and of course, a great wedding~!
7)everyone around me to be happier each day and live life to the fullest

I must be going crazy from the stress of work. Hurray!! Holiday!!! ^_^

Happiness

Humans are greedy. When you have nothing, you wish you could just have some and you would be happy. When you have some, you wish you could have more. What makes a person happy?

In the past, I thought.. I'll be happy if I could have a loved one. When I have a loved one, I thought.. I'll be happy if I could marry him soon. When I was engaged, with a flat to our names, and the marriage nearing, why am I still not happy?

I thought.. I'll be happy when I have more money. When I started working, I thought.. I'll be happy with pay every month with something I enjoy. Then, I thought.. I'll be happy if I have more income and time. When I had more, I still don't feel happy nor satisfied. I want more. What makes a person happy?

Sometimes really wonder, what's the meaning of life? What are we searching and working for? Is happiness such a difficult goal to achieve? Or is it not a goal at all?

Life in a Govt Healthcare sector

Keke.. Such an "interesting title". It's my 6th week at TTSH. Well, life here is really.. erm.. interesting. Keke.. Even though I've worked at TDL for 8 mths previously, this seemed like my first real job. It's a big organization, many departments to go through, specific jobscope, many colleagues and plentiful of clients.

Everyday is a busy day at work. From the start, there was little orientation coz of the heavy work load. Everything was OJT (On-the-job training), very different from what I expected. I thought govt sector jobs are super slow paced, and will think one needs to relearn everything from the start and be spoon fed. Hee.. Okok. My fault. So it is really not so for all govt jobs. My job is super fast paced. Everyday I'm busy rushing my cases, and wish time will not pass so fast. At lunch time, we need to be hurried for lunch because we'll be stuck to our jobs. Everyday at 6pm, I would think, "shucks! still got so much work not done!" Haha.. The good thing is that we can go off on time everyday at 6pm. Of course, if we want to stay, we can too. As everyone tells me "There is outstanding work everyday. That is why we have our jobs. So just relax and focus on the urgent and impt everyday." Overall, work is busy, stressful, but fulfilling and enjoyable. I think I really like my job now. ^_^

A New Beginning

Time passes so fast lately. I promised to blog upon confirmation, so though it's a bit late, here I am. During the 2 months of break, I spent time thinking about what I want to do and searched for what I want. Actually I didn't have much courage to pursue what I want, but Melvin pushed me to it, wanting me to wait till the right job came.

I looked through and applied for many jobs that may be what I may want to do. It's easy to get a job, but not easy to wait for the suitable one, because one gets stressed easily without income. In the end, I chanced upon a job in NHG to serve in Tan Tock Seng Hospital. The job requires at least 3 years exp in healthcare, and I didn't dare apply at first. Coz I got nil prior health care exp. But Melvin encouraged me to apply for it. I was always interested in health care, and hoped to pursue a career in it, but the opportunities weren't there before. So this time, I took the opportunity to apply for it.

I got this job through many coincidences and blessings. Before I went for the interview, I was offered another job, which I turned down. Heng ar.. lolx.. During the interview, there was a long queue of interviewees which made me really nervous. I was given an essay question when I reached, without being informed beforehand, and told to do it within 30 min. I completed within 15 minutes and was allowed into the interview room earlier, jumping queue, and was tested on my impromptu translation skill during the interview. Diaox. Luckily I passed with flying colours. I was told to be notified within a week if I got the job. During that week, I couldn't sleep. Finally, the phone call came, and hurray! I got it.

So, this is the first time I got a job which I wanted myself, and thought about it for a long long time. It is now my 2nd week, and god, it's really tiring. My job's always busy and on-the-go. Time passes in a blink, and sometimes I got so many tasks on hand I don't know what I'm doing, especially with all the abbreviations and medical terms that hospitals use. And I'm only given the easy jobs now, wait till I get the difficult ones. But at the same time, I find it really challenging and fulfilling. I go home everyday feeling satisfied and very TIRED. keke.. Actually a lot of my job scope is similar to what I did at TDL, but with much much more benefits. I get to see the sun when I end work, I get to spend time with my family and have dinner together, I get to enjoy my weekend, and I get paid more stably! The culture is also suitable for me to have a family, my future mother-in-law's in the health care sector so she takes care of me more now (She kept nagging at Melvin to not disturb me and let me rest more because my job is tiring), I get good medical benefits, I get to enjoy bonuses. Oh, and one really big coincidence and blessing is that my boss is also a vegetarian! Keke.. So... I'm well taken care of by the one up there. With everything in place, and Melvin's new job starting next mon, we prob can have a kid as soon as we get married le. Thank god~ ^_^